Permission to leap, *without* knowing the answers

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On the one hand, I didn't know where I was headed. On the other hand, I had the deepest knowing that was pulling me towards where I needed to be.

Permission to leap, *without* knowing the answers

I've been smiling inside as I've observed the release of my friend Lauren Sapala's most recent couple of courses. Somehow, she managed to tune into the collective pulse of what her audience needs and deliver it to them (or, I should say, us as I'm very much a part of her audience and if you're reading this post, you probably are too).

Her course for Online Creatives is the sort I would have jumped onto a couple of years ago, when I was navigating my own new world of work. It was the sort of course that would have spoken to me on a deep level, and perhaps even have helped nudged me along a little more smoothly. Her most recent Intuitive Coaching course is speaking to me more presently, as I look to step into my own coaching practice.

Perhaps that Online Creatives course would have guided me more firmly. Instead, I had to navigate this rather messy path myself and, thank goodness, I eventually stumbled onto the right track.

But, no, I have to correct myself here. Because, you see, I was ALWAYS on the right track. I didn't know that then, and I certainly didn't believe it.

Really, I was clueless. Absolutely clueless. My rational mind had no idea what I was going to do, or how I was going to make "it" work. I was acting purely on blind faith, putting one foot in front of the other and trying my best to ignore the sheer uncertainty of it all.

As it turns out, that was the key.

On the one hand, I didn't know where I was headed. On the other hand, I had the deepest knowing that was pulling me towards where I needed to be. Five years ago, I knew that what I was doing wasn't working, it didn't make me feel good, my soul was yearning for a change. I had to move away from recruitment... I had to try doing my own thing and when those first couple of things didn't work (there've been more than a couple, but the two I invested most time and energy in were Thriva and HonestContent), I had to listen to what my intuition was telling me, try something knew, and continue to blindly move forward.

Seeing it all written out like this looks like madness. And yet, listening to my heart is probably one of the most sane things I've learned to do.

My WHY and WHAT were out there, waiting to be found. I reckon they were in me all along, but it took a little time to uncover them, slowly.

Leaving my job was a bold move for me. I felt a little crazy at the time, but looking back I feel that most of that "feeling crazy" came from others, it wasn't mine. I knew. I resigned the day I had an offer to study a full-time Masters, in a field (Positive Psychology) I found fascinating. This was going to be my year of figuring it all out. Little did I know that there was much more to come (there was no "smooth transition" from one thing to another). It's been a case of figuring it out step-by-step, bit by bit, and embracing both the unknowing, aka 'where am I going?!'

For me, the "knowing" was that I had not quite yet landed on the spot. So I had to keep moving. I just didn't exactly know what "the spot" would look like. But it was there, waiting to be found.

I learned lots about myself that year - and in the ones that have followed. In fact, I've probably learned more in latter years as I've embraced intuitive feeling over rational answers.

But my message to you is this - I didn't know what to do, I didn't have it all figured out and, truth be told, even today as I write this, I don't have the answers. I'm moving forward based on a gut feel and a knowing which still isn't crystal clear, but has slowly become more clear.

I didn't have it all figured out. For us intuitives especially, we really don't have to.

If you feel "the pull", just start putting one foot in front of you, and go from there. Your heart knows what you truly want and, over time, in my experience things will start to become clearer, and the "unknowing" won't feel so frightening. In fact, it can be really magical.

Oh, and you don't have to leap. My journey has consisted of a handful of leaps, with lots of just putting one foot in front of the other, slowly.



photo: Jakob Owens

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